Working through my gripes with personal projects.
Dawn Notes no.43
Hey! That is me.
Change of plans?
Okay, so I am walking back my statement about learning Godot. It is very funny since I very confidently announced it, but upon a little more research and trying things out I have changed some decisions. And I just want to remind myself that that is okay!
What lead me to this decision in just one day? (a pleasant ramble)
Well I want to do a lot of things. That has been true forever I believe. But yesterday I took a moment and actually took a shot at making some music in Reaper (the DAW, that I am using now, since switching to Linux), and it went quite well! I made two little ideas for songs/soundscapes. So, basically just scratched the surface there a little, but it felt nice. I was enjoying my time, and I think like two hours went by and I didn't notice and I didn't feel bad about "wasting time", which was the case when I started to learn Godot. I just don't have a passion for making games necessarily I think, at least not through a engine. Why? I think because I like the idea of understanding things from scratch, and then messing with it to do creative things. I have, so far, enjoyed learning C++ and I want to learn more, I just need to let go of the idea that I am making some "product" for lack of a better term. Sure, I have an image in my head that I want to put into a game, or something creative but it doesn't have to happen right now in a way that I am not really enjoying it, you know? All of this is to say, it wasn't really just a day. Over the course of some weeks or maybe a month I have been finessing these thoughts.
With that, what am I doing?
I am still interested in making music, learning coding, eventually doing something with graphics, games, stories, writing, 3d modelling, etc. I will do those. When? Doesn't matter. I will just keep chipping away at the topics. I will probably end up with some mini projects that I will share eventually. I hope to see you then. (I can't really see you, don't worry.)
Note to self: don't watch that much "inspirational" youtube videos. It makes me dizzy.