On things that matter.
Dawn Notes no.60
I will take more pictures of the moon.
In the past few days I have been thinking about remembering.
I believed that I had a relatively unique way of thinking about objects of reminiscence, since I never check my photos on my phone and whenever I would have a new phone I wouldn't bother checking that I have secured them. I think that just comes as a result of me not looking back at my past through pictures. I never scroll through my camera roll, unless I am looking for a specific image for some reason. Other things that are the same way for me are objects like my bike, that got stolen after only a month of use or my phones that I don't invest in any protection for, even the camera that I use to take pictures for this blog and for myself, I hardly take care of it. To illustrate, its ribbon cable got damaged and I had to fix it myself, which was a fun adventure, but yeah, I don't take care of it. I can come up with many more examples, like my old minecraft world saves, data on my laptops, my laptops themselves, any other tools I have. So, the conclusion that I kinda reached for myself was that I don't care about things. They don't matter to me. At most I find things useful as tools.
However, today I found some resistance to this theory. I do care, I just move on quickly. That spoils the conclusion I think, but yeah. For example, my steam library. I have a lot of games on there and it would suck to lose them, yet when they would, I would move on swiftly. Because I still have the memories and I will remember the things that matter.